Kind of Freaking Out!!

Well of course I'm getting all the questions from my friends, "Sooo, when are getting him?" I have to tell them we don't know. We are waiting on a couple things. One of these is our immigration paperwork to be completed. You know the great and wonderful people at immigration. The ones I absolutely love. The ones who issue the fingerprint appointment so we can get issued a 171-H so we can file our I-864 in Delhi. Well I got a letter today telling us that they will issue an appointment letter for both of us and pending fingerprints and homestudy they issue the 171-H. I know the fingerprint letter will be here soon. The part that freaked me out was at the bottom. It tells you that you can get the process expedited if your agency sends proof that you have a referral. Since we do have a Prasun, well I guess we qualify to be expedited. Cue freak out. We are in the courts already. We could be signed in as little as 4 weeks. We could travel in June. EKKKK!! I've got it in my head that we are traveling in August. I don't know why. I just got it in my head. I'm not setting my heart on anytime. I know what happened with Ananya and I just can mentally go there again. It was too hard and completely unproductive.
I'm going to have 2 3 year olds. I have most of the things I need for Prasun. Clothes, crib, bedding. Very few odds and ends are left. It is however crazy that it could be 9 weeks away. I'm so excited. After the last set of pictures and Prasun's crying, I'm ready. I want to go now. It's just that sometimes God calls you to do HUGE things. Things that you don't know how it can be done, well. I guess I've just been looking at my life and realizing what God is expecting of me. I feel completely in adequate. I can't do this on my own. I have to keep remembering that I'm not doing that on my own. God is holding my hand everyday. God wants what is best for my family. His plans are so much better than my own.
Anyways. We went to the zoo last week. We are going back sometime soon. It was a cold day and I was getting worn out quickly. I was thinking the whole time of what it was going to be like with 2 littles. Maybe even 3. I'm so ready to have my house full of babies. The zoo was fun. The animals were out and we got to see lots of them. Ananya likes to be outside walking around. I'll add some pictures now and quit yapping.