If you ever doubted the need for adoption...

If you ever had any doubts about the need for international adoption, let me introduce you to Sandra. This beautiful little girl lived a lonely life. She probably didn't have enough to eat, didn't get many hugs or kiss. She may not have ever had anyone say "I love you". It doesn't really matter now though. Sandra is in Heaven. Her Heavenly Father is holding her and saying "I Love You".
Stupid, Greedy Human Nature.
***EDITTED**** This is just one of the beautiful children listed on Reeces Rainbow. Alot of these children are in danger of being transferred to mental institutions in *astern *urope. Just look it up on YouTube and you will see the horrible conditions and why these children die from neglect. We have fairly strong social systems. These countries don't.
People looking the other way when directly asked to help save a life.
How many more children die before people get their act together? Unfortunately, probably alot. I guess Sandra got the good end of the deal. She is with Jesus.

Doing Well

We are doing good. We made it out of ICU last night. We waited all day for a room. Prasun was hurting and scared yesterday. He is a bit of an anxious child and you can't really blame him for being scared with all that is going on.
We immediately noticed a difference in the tone of Prasun's legs and hips. The doctor told us that he found the nerves that were causing the spastic movements and they were BAD. He cut alot of them. Prasun was laying on his back with his hips rotated slightly to the left when we got to ICU. This is so abnormal because he ALWAYS rotates to the right. We are very optimistic. He can move his legs so now all we have to do is get his strength back. I know we have a long road of therapy ahead of us. 6 months or more of 5 days a week. That is what the therapists are doing. As his parents, I would like to see us do that much. Its time to get both of these kids walking.
Well, I'm sure that was all rambling but I'm going to leave it. I'm going to take a nap with Prasun. Hopefully we will have a great therapy session tomorrow.

One More Day

We have one more day left. Anxieties are running high in our house. Prasun isn't a fan of the doctor anymore so any talk about this causes him anxiety. Me and Patrick are freaked out. Patrick was researching the surgeon on the internet yesterday for any reason to not do the surgery. Once Prasun is awake and in ICU I'll be a whole lot better.
I'll update everyone on facebook throughout the day tomorrow and then blog once we are settled in. Today its packing and cleaning.

5 Days

I wanted to speak briefly about special needs children and our current situation.
In 5 days, the life of one of my children is going to change, largely and forever. We have 5 days until surgery. This surgery could allow Prasun to walk completely independently, or it could cause him to be paralyzed. That is a really big thing to be facing when he doesn't really know the full ramifications.
I know that God has a great plan for his life. I know that he is in God's hands and that God loves him way more than I ever could.
Truth be told though, I'm scared. They are operating on my child's spinal cord, but even more worrisome is that he is simply having surgery. I don't like it when my kids have surgery. For those hours, I have NO control over their safety. As a nurse, to me that is scary. SIGH!!!
This is how God tests me. He puts me in situations where I have to rely on Him for the safety of my family.
So for the next 5 days, I'm going to be an emotional wreck. I am going to be trying not to thing about the surgery. I'm going to just make a to do list and check off everything. Make plans for the week after surgery and just pretend that nothing is going to happen.
If you see me crying, say a prayer for us. Give me a hug, then promptly change the subject.
Thank you.

How Do You Like It?

We got a new button for our adoption fundraising. The wonderful ladies at Reeces Rainbow created a button for people to put on our blog. We'd love it if you would put the button on your blog. I can't wait until we have guardianship of our princess so we can share her picture with everyone.

One Down, One to Go

We have finished 1 surgery. Ananya is lighter a couple pieces of metal and finally on her way to recovery. We will still have to go back one more time to get the plate taken out that was put in when she broke her leg in November.
Two weeks and we will be finished with surgeries for a little while. Prasun goes on January 26th to have his SDR.
Then we just have the long road to recovery to get these 2 walking (again). Prasun is a no-brainer. He LOVES walking. Ananya on the other hand seems to have no use for being upright and mobile (besides crawling). Not sure how to make this happen. Her problem is simply an issue of strength. She is weak. I just need to find the thing that is going to motivate her.
On the adoption front:
We are getting ready to file our I-800 and compiling our dossier. I feel like this is the never-ending adoption. Oh my! It is delay after delay. I know eventually it will all fall into place. Not quite sure how though. I hope everything goes so quick, including our fundraising. We have lots of money to raise.
Everyone have a blessed weekend.

Dear Jesus

Dear Jesus,
The narrow path is kind of lonely sometimes. Can you please convict more people of the things you are showing. I heard loud and clear when you said that food is not unclean but the mouth of man. Horrible things come out of the mouth of man. Thank you for the cross. Thank you for standing with me when I am up to my eyeballs in my own self-righteousness.
Love,
Your follower

I'm not sure if I'm being convicted or just turning into a big giant prude. In this case I'm taking prudishness as a positive. I'm having a difficult time watching indecency on tv, I hate hearing vulgarness in music, I don't like seeing all that is going on around me that NO ONE would do in the presence of God. UMMMM... ( He's watching right now. Maybe not the best time for a dirty joke just because you don't think others are listening.) I don't know where all of this started. I'm really glad that it did though. I'll keep following the narrow path. Jesus did. I'm following him, not the person next to me. I'm done following people that I know are headed in the wrong direction.