Friday, January 21, 2011
I wanted to speak briefly about special needs children and our current situation.
In 5 days, the life of one of my children is going to change, largely and forever. We have 5 days until surgery. This surgery could allow Prasun to walk completely independently, or it could cause him to be paralyzed. That is a really big thing to be facing when he doesn't really know the full ramifications.
I know that God has a great plan for his life. I know that he is in God's hands and that God loves him way more than I ever could.
Truth be told though, I'm scared. They are operating on my child's spinal cord, but even more worrisome is that he is simply having surgery. I don't like it when my kids have surgery. For those hours, I have NO control over their safety. As a nurse, to me that is scary. SIGH!!!
This is how God tests me. He puts me in situations where I have to rely on Him for the safety of my family.
So for the next 5 days, I'm going to be an emotional wreck. I am going to be trying not to thing about the surgery. I'm going to just make a to do list and check off everything. Make plans for the week after surgery and just pretend that nothing is going to happen.
If you see me crying, say a prayer for us. Give me a hug, then promptly change the subject.