I know I don't keep this blog updated. I'm sorry. My life is crazy most of the time. It would probably help if I let my feelings out here.
I'm going to ask you guys to pray for some of the things (actually children) on my mind.
Please pray for:
-A little boy in NC foster care who is hard to place.
-A little boy in Ethiopia who needs a chance.
-A brother and sister living through a disruption, integrating to a new home.
-2 brothers who will probably be separated if adoptive homes can be found because of their needs.
-A little girl who will soon go through a disruption
-3 sisters waiting for a home so they can finally live together again.
-A little girl born missing parts of her brain and the family that adopted her.
-For a family preparing for an adoption and a funeral... as they pray for a HUGE miracle from God for healing of their new precious baby on the way.
-For me. My heart is broken again almost everyday. I find a new child that needs a home. I know that we can help a child. I pray we can help more. I feel small. Insignificant. The problem is so HUGE. What can I do to help? I pray for direction.
Lord, which way do I go? What steps do I take? Which path is for us?
I don't even know on most days. I'm so confused. I feel a calling, I just wish I knew where that calling was.
Kay Warren named it. I'm GLORIOUSLY RUINED. I am. I mourn for the death of HIV infected people in Africa. I mourn for the orphans it creates. I mourn for the death of the orphans, by starvation or AIDS. I mourn for the loss of innocence and childhood of so many children in America. I mourn for the lost opportunity of so many parents in this country to raise great children. To experience parenthood as I experience parenthood. I mourn everything the world is losing by not taking care of the orphans around the world. I mourn the loss of an entire generation of strong men as leaders because they have no fathers to lead them.
So here I sit in my RUINED (I'm happy to be RUINED) state. I pray that God will push me. Push me in the right direction. I'm laying out my fleece. I'm willing to sacrifice. I willing to give. I'm willing to teach, preach, and lead my children. I'm willing...