Trials are not enemies of faith but are opportunities to prove
God's faithfulness. -- Author Unknown

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to say 'thank you?' -- William A. Ward

Monday, May 24, 2010

Prayers

I know I don't keep this blog updated. I'm sorry. My life is crazy most of the time. It would probably help if I let my feelings out here.
I'm going to ask you guys to pray for some of the things (actually children) on my mind.
Please pray for:
-A little boy in NC foster care who is hard to place.
-A little boy in Ethiopia who needs a chance.
-A brother and sister living through a disruption, integrating to a new home.
-2 brothers who will probably be separated if adoptive homes can be found because of their needs.
-A little girl who will soon go through a disruption
-3 sisters waiting for a home so they can finally live together again.
-A little girl born missing parts of her brain and the family that adopted her.
-For a family preparing for an adoption and a funeral... as they pray for a HUGE miracle from God for healing of their new precious baby on the way.
-For me. My heart is broken again almost everyday. I find a new child that needs a home. I know that we can help a child. I pray we can help more. I feel small. Insignificant. The problem is so HUGE. What can I do to help? I pray for direction.
Lord, which way do I go? What steps do I take? Which path is for us?
I don't even know on most days. I'm so confused. I feel a calling, I just wish I knew where that calling was.
Kay Warren named it. I'm GLORIOUSLY RUINED. I am. I mourn for the death of HIV infected people in Africa. I mourn for the orphans it creates. I mourn for the death of the orphans, by starvation or AIDS. I mourn for the loss of innocence and childhood of so many children in America. I mourn for the lost opportunity of so many parents in this country to raise great children. To experience parenthood as I experience parenthood. I mourn everything the world is losing by not taking care of the orphans around the world. I mourn the loss of an entire generation of strong men as leaders because they have no fathers to lead them.
So here I sit in my RUINED (I'm happy to be RUINED) state. I pray that God will push me. Push me in the right direction. I'm laying out my fleece. I'm willing to sacrifice. I willing to give. I'm willing to teach, preach, and lead my children. I'm willing...

4 comments:

The Labontes said...

Ruined and willing is a good place to be. I really believe that God will lead you. Sometimes we just have to wait for him to take the lead. Praying.
Kristy

Julie & Patrick said...

Compassionate. That's what I call it. I think Kristy is right. You've been groomed, now comes the wait, an equally important lesson...to remain open in heart and mind as to not miss the path that will present itself in good time.

Julie R

Peter and Nancy said...

Your heart is beautiful -- it so reflects the heart of God. I will pray for the situations you mentioned . . .
Nancy

Leveta said...

Amanda:
I am praying those prayers too but especially for the ones closest to your heart.I wish we could adopt again but many things prevent us from doing so BUT I am praying and helping in areas where I can.Praying that the Lord brings just the right child into your home.
Leveta