Trials are not enemies of faith but are opportunities to prove
God's faithfulness. -- Author Unknown

God gave you a gift of 86,400 seconds today. Have you used one
to say 'thank you?' -- William A. Ward

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Jumble of Thoughts

This trip.
I knew 3 years ago that this adoption was going to change things.  In a huge way.
I was right.
This adoption brought us to Reeces Rainbow.  This adoption has brought us new friends.  This adoption has shown us Project Hopeful.  This adoption brought us to Asharan.  Asharan is changing us.  We've met Niton and Anul.  I've prayed and cried my heart out at the orphanage.  These 2 need a home.  They've stole our heart and they need a home.  A third needs healing.  She is tiny and is sick right now.  I'm praying for her to get strong.  I'd spend everyday there, holding the babies if I could.
Varsha is a doll.  She is hugging and kissing us.  We can tell that she gets nervous with all the changes.  Making her life bigger is making her uncomfortable.  We have to be strong and consistent.  We have to be there in a huge way.
This is a new kind of parenting for us.  We have new medical things to deal with.  This is a different kind of parenting for us.  We will walk this new path and find new friends to walk with us.  Its all good.
Varsha is so smart.  She is picking up signs.  She doesn't know what they mean but she is learning them and through time will learn the meaning.
School will be fun.  She doesn't want to concentrate right now.  We'll give it a few months of laid back bonding and just watching the other kids and then we will start.  I'll figure out how to get her seen at the school for speech therapy like the other kids.  That is what she'll need most.  We'll be doing a lot of the work too. Time is the key.  6 months is my time frame right now.  6 months will be rough adjustment and then we hit our grove.  Mostly it is the first 3 months.  By 6 months last time we were at a foster care meeting.  6 months my focus isn't what's next.  6 months my focus is today.  It is my 4 kids.  Learning english.  Finding everyone's place.  6 months she will be a different child. Until then, we just do the next thing.
I just don't even know what to say about this trip.  It's hard to drive past the shanties and the slums to get to the orphanage.  Its hard to go past them to get to our hotel.
I haven't said much considering all that is on my mind, but this is all I can get out today.  It is a whole lot to process.


Peter and Nancy said...

That's what has been so frustrating with the long waits in adoptions these last three years -- I can't stop thinking about all of those kids waiting, waiting, waiting. I will be praying for Varsha on the trip home, and for all of you over the next months.

Arnold family said...

I will be praying that the kids find homes. We will praying for your adjustment and 6 months is the magic #. It hard to see so much need and then to leave it.

Holly Arnold

Leveta said...

Praying that you get into that groove and see postive growth forward for all of you.She is so precious and I know well loved where she was and I know that is important in her adjustment with you all. Praying for all those other children who need homes. I would love to be able to scoop all of them up and bring them home.